Today started much like any other day with a little semi-deep theological discussion and moved on to enjoy a wonderful cup of hot coffee laced with chocolate caramel creamer followed by breakfast with the kids (9 of them). Then I packed a lunch for the one first grader in my care and sent her off to school. We’ve enjoyed free play time, some joyful music, snack time, and kissed a few boo-boo’s.
I even managed to put real clothing on (although it is only jeans and a tee) and brush my teeth AND hair this morning. A small miracle indeed.
Something came to me this morning during a conversation with a very wonderful friend… I’m missing having a family support system. Missing as in not just that its absent, but that the absence is feeding an unfulfilled need in my life and the holes are growing larger. It’s the silly things like not having a Dad around (as a single Mom, Dad’s come in handy) to hammer loose boards back in and share a cup of coffee. Or a Mom to share a chat with or remind me of where to find that favorite recipe.
In the past, I’ve tried to fill those holes with a husband and the family we created… now I’m figuring out how to do that on my own since I obviously wasn’t successful on the marriage front.
Maybe I should look into adopting a Dad… 🙂